One day last year I was walking with you.

I felt nothing.

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Nothing here is real.

I could drift away like this sand and it wouldn’t matter.

I’m already gone.

The worms of my feet frighten you.

it doesn’t matter Fool.

if you could see.

I am not here.

You fear nothing.

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YOU’RE ALL FUCKING BLIND!!

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stripes of nothing

empty

There is nothing in your head.

You have not even the promise of a blank page—

I can barely stand to be in your presence,

Because you are not there.

Worse than a shell

I can’t believe you were born—

You mock the word.

My whole mouth can’t stop twitching

with the need to spit you out.

I will put up every defense

I can against your blank

nothing, dare it try to encroach over me.

….

How is it you make a shadow ?

Stop fucking choking me.

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What is real?

violence?

shut up, SHUT UP !!!!

the hand slams against head.

I could bang my head against this

wall till blood split down out of my

split skull

but that’s not even happening -- not really.

no consequence

in this world

could make me feel.